Once and For All: My Grief
Once and for all let me tell you about my grief.
I have been grieving since I was a very young boy; a form of release.
It began when I lost my namesake and became a source of ridicule to others.
I grieved for myself, and I grieved for my mother.
I mourned my father until I could read, and then I read the Bible and mourned for humanity.
But even then, a comforter came into my heart to heal me,
All that could be done was to be there when the jealous one began to torture me.
Still, I became the defender of widows and orphans in my home,
God knew me then and did not let me suffer alone.
I could have left the abuse and gone to seminary at thirteen.
But then who would be there to take the blows and the de-humanity?
I became hardened until the day I fought back. Then some called me evil,
Nay I was the defender for daring to act.
Yes, I drifted I was still in grief and then many began to die.
And now my grief is compounded until it is a great pressure
And that is why…why God has been with me don’t you understand?
Because God has been with me, I am aware of his plan.
To save the widow and widower, the many that cry.
Whose tears are like rivers, that fall from the sky.
Now the whole world should be weeping as the earth mother surrenders to death.
I need relief from this burden, but I will fight to my last breath.
I am the bearer of sorrows that lives amongst men.
I am the ridiculed, the unwanted the reminder of death,
But you too will be weeping, until Jesus returns.
And then I will hold again, the ones in these urns.
I will no longer mourn but rejoice in new life, I will be the groom who regains his true wife.
My father and mother will also be there, mom will say she was proud I never cut my hair.
The Love of God will be like a light that brings new growth of flowers, of trees and small critters in that final hour.
All will be healed as it is all being revealed, but until then I will grieve
for many are blind and deceive. God has been with me He is with me still…
I gave up rebelling and surrendered my will.
With or without God we suffer, and we will cry.
Better to know Him in spite of these tears in our eyes.
"We are afflicted in every way, but not crushed; perplexed, but not driven to despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed; always carrying in the body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be manifested in us..." 2 Corinthians 4:8-10
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